Well it's Tues...been back from san jose for 2 days..I feel lil better now b/c jeff is feeling better. He sounds almost hundred percent and he can start eating solid foods. Kelvin is taking care of all the other stuff, like legal issues, car insurance, health insurance, so things are turning out good slowly but surely. He's gonna go look at the car too, and take picture...I'm really wondering about how the car looks like. Sarah's been talking to me lately and she pisses me off. She says things that make me feel like she wants to get back together, so i open up and make her feel important, and as soon as I do that she just pushes me away. This whole apartment thing is annoying me. I haven't even seen her pad, I told her I'd help her move in and stuff, but she refuses, and she asks her friends to help her. Whatever. It's nothing I should be annoyed about, b/c technically I'm just her friend. I dunno why I have these feelings. I honestly know it's because I've been lonely, and i want someone there. I know it's bad, so I got to try to keep my lonely feelings alone within me and not like her again for the wrong reasons. I'm not sure if she's playing games or what's going on in her head, but I have to just relax and not take anything personally and not show her that I like her. She really gives me a headache and anxiety, and she nkows that I am weak to her. I just ask God to give me strength, and just treat her the way she needs to be treated. Not push her in any way, and just be there for her. That's what she needs.About the camcorder charger too, she was supposed to come pick it up from me at work before goign to her pad, but she goes to meet her friends and kick it. If she asks me to drop it off, hell no. Well, maybe I"ll drop it off b/c I'm nice, then we'll see what she does. I know she'll just say thanks, then go back inside, not even letting me see her pad b/c her friends are inside. But whatever...gotta be a man bout it...She got nothing on me. Just need to keep her on the side..actually I just need to stop talking to her, just need to find me another gf..hopefully it's the girl in SD! I'll leave it up to fate.
posted by Yule at 2:23 PM

Well, on Friday morning Jeff got into a horrible car accident driving drunk. This was a day I'll never forget. He was nowhere to be found on Friday, so Fat and Joe called police stations and hospitals looking for him. They finally found him at the ICU at Santa Clara Valley Hospital. He was in critical condition and unconscious for more than 24 hours. He lost a lot of blood and had major physical damages....I flew up with Jess, Jen, and james to see him. It was tough....It was so sad to see him like that..I don't have to explain in words b/c eveyrhing is in memory. We stayed there til 8, then the next day we went there again. He looked much better the next day, but he is still a long way from recovery. When the fuck is his bad luck streak gonna stop? such a bad trip...GOD is looking out for him though...in some way or another....This is his second chance at life. I am never driving drunk again. I met with Koala, Fat and Amy yest...ate at MadangSae for only 10 bux! They messed up on the bill, then went intercrew, then went noraebang, then went home. I only slept 2 hours....Too many things on my mind right now. Confused and dazed......
posted by Yule at 8:34 AM