It's Thursday and tomorrow I have a day off. So i'm glad at that. Work is same old ish, so no point of wasting time on that. I'm going to Ski Dazzle today with ebot, hopefully to buy some snowboard boots. He's going to buy a board, bindings, and boots. Hopefully we can find something good. After that Jeff's coming down to meet us for dinner. I dunno which of the members are going, but it should be cool. I know we gonna get hella faded fosheezee. Tomorrow I dunno what I'll do, prolly just chill or something...hopefully go to Zankou chicken. As you can see I'm really looking forward to the new year and hopefully it'll bring me good thigns. I know I have to initiate to be productive, and I hope I really really can. I'm done for today. I'll write back Monday and tell you how fun my weekend was. Hopefully I'm still healthy!!
posted by Yule at 9:30 AM

Here I am on Wednesday morning. Let me recap what happened yesterday. It was an average day of work, but I took a two hour lunch to do some freelancing at David Gould Company. I love consulting over there b/c they're so nice and they offer to buy me lunch all the time. I like the girl Nadia over there, she's so weet and nice and a hard worker. But she's married and has a baby. I don't like no baby's mommas. AFter that I came back to work and finished up. I worked out after work, then headed home. My same routine happened, go home, drink shake, chill, nap, watch Laker game. I called Sarah, b/c the night before I had a bad dream about her. My dream was that she hooked up with another guy and I was sour. I totally didn't think this would happen, but I still had an urgency to call her. I didn't have her number though. So I called Yon and got it from her. Yon and I actually had a good conversation, we never really talked like that before. I'm glad that Sarah has a good friend like that. But anyways, I ended up calling Sarah that night, and like usual she had attitude and gave up a tough front. I finally broke through it, even though she was being mean to me. I asked her about the guys that she "supposedly" was seeing, and to my surprise she admitted it and started describing these guys like so good looking, good personalities, blah blah blah. Frankly I was shocked and didn't want to hear it, and played it off for a little bit. But eventually I broke and started getting sad. The thing is that she kept on rubbing it in my face, and I started to get annoyed. I ws shocked, hurt, and annoyed, and she spoke of these guys so highly and made me feel inadequate. It's all good, I mean she could've put it nicer, but I guess that's her style. She kept saying how fine this one guy was, and that she wasn't into looks. I mean does that make sense? Whatever...but anyways I tried ending the conversation in a nice way, and I think I did. I mean even during our time of conversation, everything I said she took wrong, cut me off, and she thought I was putting her down. I realized that it is imposisble to communiate with her. It's not my fault, or her fault, we're jsut two different people and we're on different wavelengths. That's the hardest thing to realize and accept. Feelings are there, but we just don't match. I realized that it's the way that we're brought up is totally different. I wonder why all PK's come out jacked up. It really confuses me.. Shouldn't GOD be looking out for them? I'm not questioning GOD or putting him in any negative connotation. It just makes me wonder. I know GOD has everything straight. Sorry God. Anyways I hope that everything turns out good for GSUN...b/c I still care for her.
posted by Yule at 8:20 AM

Well, here I am at my puter again. This week is going to be a breeze b/c all the SUPERVISORS at the LOS office are in Louisiana. Now I can totally fuck around...come in late, 3 hour lunches..blah blah blah...Well this weekend was not bad. Fri I chilled at home and rested from a long and stressful week of work (j/k), Saturday woke up at 8am b/c I slept so dam early on Fri. I worked out, cleaned my room, fixed my wega tv (tech has to come back next week..he didn't have the part), and setup wireless network at my house, and then went out. WE went out to MANNA for Sang's bday...it was pretty grubbin...got hella faded...went to GREEN BELT..got more faded..then went to CONGO's house and crashed. I wanted to go SPEARMINT RHINO but was too cracked out and my brain was retarded. It was pretty fun..and chill...haven't been to a cafe in hella long time. I saw Sarah there..it was nice seeing her actually after awhile, and it was different. We were very nice to each other and we were friendly, but I seem to have lost that unconditional love, or longing for her. I guess it's not true love..It's kind sad b/c when I was faded..I said all these nice and sentimental things to her.but after she left I didn't feel anything. Maybe I just wanted to hump, or maybe I just was cracked out..I miss her though...She's a nice girl..but too much for me to deal with. Slept at koko's..Dogger crashed there too..so in da morning we went to Bob's big boy to eat breakfast buffet..pretty nasty..too many niggas go there after church. That reminds me..I need to go to church man...haven't been for like 2 months..and I long for something that nothing material nor money can make me feel whole. Every fucken weekend I get so jacked..that Sunday I ahve to sleep at koko's and then waste all day watching football..I can't wait til football season is over so I don't have to waste all day sunday..and also I want to stop betting on Sunday..it is a holy day you know...Sarah always tells me not to bet on Sundays. She was a good influence...=) But I won 300 this week! I think I'm on fire, but don't want to dwell in it b/c I might jinx myself. Anyways...Sunday went back home..watched the raiders barely beat the pats..watched sopranos..then crashed. It was a pretty uneventful weekend..but it was OK. this weekend my faggot friend is coming down from SJ..I took a day off fo his ass so we have an extra day to party. I'm looking forward to this weekend though. I finally want to hook up with someone. I've been outta da game for so dam long...Thrus we gonna eat with the membaz in ktown, fri we go to Lounge, and Sat we go Korean clubbin. Gonna spend a lot of money this weekend..but hopefully I can make it up by winning at football next week. I got my photography class today, but I"m gonna ditch it again. Fucken waste of money..spent $120 on dat class, and only went twice. I guess I'm not gonna be a photographer..I'm going to KOREAN class 2mor though fosheezee.. That class is actually kinda fun. Well, I gotta go walk around and wake myself up. Maybe go down and walk around at the park...
posted by Yule at 12:12 PM